It's Almost 3a.m in the morning already, I'm fully awake (not! Getting sleepy with droopy eyes). But feel like blogging out some thoughts before I get to sleep. / By the way, made myself a pizza for the breakfast later on. (Picture will be uploaded tomorrow) &I've had a haircut this evening, love my current hairstyle so much already! :D

Though the loneliness never make me fall apart, sometimes I feel like maybe it's time for a change. People who don't know me often judge me as a girl who have many hang-around buddies, but to me that might be true but I don't think I have accepted or adopted any close buddies in my life. (Okay maybe during the childish pre-teenage years before an incident actually happened.) Since then I used to believe that sometimes it's better to be alone, because I'll be more assured that nobody can hurt me. But after some time I guess I'm someone who hurt myself in the end. Hence I did tried to move on but still choose to stay in my own world, away from the crowd and people. Because I now believe that the best way to search for something great is to stay where I am. But the issue still hits me, do I really love who I'm being, can I get my own self back to the pre-teenage character again, or do I require a lost of memory to start everything over? Maybe I'm just thinking too much to know that I'm actually happy.