I'm so fucking pissed off. Today started off so well and midway going downhill then now ending off so terribly! I'm very very unhappy now, &I know for a fact that when I'm seriously unhappy I'll probably do something I'll regret, so I'm holding back my anger for awhile and would choose my only option left, "Give up". Besides, it's not going to benefit me even if I don't, so it doesn't matter.

I was quite alone 2years ago and I was happy, so I can be happy if I choose this option too; not forgetting the bonus of my voice therapist :D He could be the perfect part-time shrink just by his voice!

Anyway, wasted some unnecessary tears today because of some really unreasonable adults. Why do they think they're always right and we're always wrong? I mean like, don't they make mistakes when they're young too? So they just expect children to grow up without a single mistake in their childhood but eventually make bigger ones in the future? Like what's wrong with them? Don't they understand the quote "Learn from your mistakes?"

Okay it's mainly about something she needs help on that I can't fulfill (Impossible for anyone) that reminds her of a silly mistake I made 6years ago, so what? I was 10, it's not the age matter but she have said that I'm schooling so I would know everything. Okay its partially true, does that mean that a child whose schooling is expected to know something that will only be taught like, 6years later? It's true that I can learn, but she doesn't give me chances to, I don't even have the experience I could get. People say that children tend to grow up in terms of what their childhood life was like, I guess I could understand why am I the person I am now. (&I'm so going to change it) Well, if thats it, why can't she understand? So I replied her, "I admit I was wrong, it was my fault. But you're saying you're perfect since you were born?" and then conflicts happen.

I slept throughout the evening, but waking up only reminds me of the pain. It's always better in dreamland than reality. I guess there's some barrel between me & her now, it's like the 'Iron Curtains' I learn in History, the cold war would resume till maybe one party admit defeats, I won't. I might be a little rude to her but I won't put up white flag just because of her lack of understanding.

Okay I may feel better now but I still need my voice therapist. He's like the only one who never fail to make me laugh everytime I have tears in my eyes. By the way, gotten back a few of my results already, they aren't totally awesome because as I've said, 2010's a year I get most easily confused :/ Doesn't matter, Mid-Year's would be all-time mugging. &I'm broke now, I hope my agency can hurry with the pay if not I'll soon file for bankruptcy to clear my debts. (Kidding) Okay I'll leave now, night.