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"Be who you are and be that well." - Saint Francis de Sales.
It may not be the worst of times, but it's not the best either. Something's wrong been going on in my life, &it's not a thing that is easy to identify; but I'm suspecting its me. /If you ask my close ones, they may give you a testimonial of me that I'm someone who aims for something and not give up till I got it. Well, that's what my parents, boyfriend, close friends & past counselor would tell you. But question is, am I really that kind of person? If so, why am I feeling so lost in a mist that I don't even know what I want anymore?
For the past few months;
- I've plans that I never fulfilled, not one.
- I lied my way through things even with the ones I always trust.
- I've been relying on people too much.
- I controlled and broke the firewall for my thoughts & actions.
- Back to old habit again.
Actually, feel better now. I'm drafting out a copy of Plan A & B for the whole of tomorrow, and if I could follow Plan A throughout for the whole of tomorrow then maybe I'm just having some temporary troubles; if not -- I'll deal with Plan B definitely. Right, I think its possible with a higher probability. From now, I'll not mind others business and do what I need to do, not touched by influence or temptations or whatever source of crap that I shouldn't need. &Maybe I'm gonna be judged for prejudice but I hate Singaporean Chinese Guys (excluding kids & elderlies, I just hate those around my age.) They have nothing to do with my problems now but they do piss me off. That's all, goodnight.
∞ Saturday, July 10, 2010 @ 1:14 AM