Fuck hate everyone & everything now. It's okay nothing's ever in my way, but why do things have to come & block all the plans I've made? Blahblahblah yeah I do know how to make adjustments. I just simply hate people who are irresponsible for their decisions & don't put their priorities right, I won't care less if all these doesn't involve me. Already so stressed and the only one I needed most for pillar of support turns out to be another blast of earthquake. I'm tired of trying so hard to be be insensitive, I'm tired of trying to prove everyone wrong, I'm tired of having to meet everyone's expectations, I'm tired of needing to do better than my cousins, I'm tired of achieving my goals, I'm tired of being everything I'm not.

I hate looking at myself everyday to realize that I don't like what I see. I hate looking back at things I did to wonder why was I like that. Even my boyfriend calls me a bitch. Everyday there's something wrong. Just one trivial thing can make me unhappy for just a moment. It's like its not possible to have a day without a bad feeling. Oh lord please tell me what's wrong.